Ah ha?

I think I've figured out why I'm so bitter towards one pregnant friend of ours  (the Friday night BBQ girl).  She had a miscarriage scare about 2 months ago.  She's fine.  The baby's fine.  Why did my miscarriage scare end so badly and hers ok?  I'd never wish that anyone go through what we went through.  The loss was absolutely devastating and really ruined me emotionally for awhile.  Even though I'm feeling better emotionally, I'm still playing the "it's not fair" game.  I'm mad that we had to lose our baby and they didn't.  That sounds horrible.  I feel bad saying it. Maybe now that I've said it "out loud," I can move on and stop feeling this way.