We have a plan!

My appointment last week went great!  My doctor is fantastic and is being very proactive.  We have a plan and that is providing me with the hope I haven't felt in a long time.

So, our plan...

If we don't get pg this cycle, we will begin testing next month.  I will go in for cd 3 blood work followed by an HSG when AF is done.  Sometime during AF, DH will go in for SA testing.  If everything comes back normal, we will continue trying until Jan.  If we're still not pg by Jan, we will go back to my dr and discuss a more aggressive plan.

DH took the news very well.  I wasn't sure how he'd react to the SA test, but he says he'll do whatever he needs to do.  God love him.

My dr says that the pressure from the HSG will kind of "open things up" and hopefully increase our chances of getting pregnant. 

I am just so relieved to have a plan!  I was nervous that he would tell us we need to keep trying, but he proved me wrong.

It feels so good to feel hopeful.

Tomorrow is the big day

I have my appointment with my OB tomorrow.  I have no idea what to expect.  All I know is that I really want to walk out of there with a plan.  I want to feel optimistic and hopeful again.  It's been awhile since I've felt that way.  Part of me is nervous that he won't be much help.  I do plan on going to a specialist if I leave there unsatisfied, but honestly, I really don't want to have to go that route.  I guess we'll just have to wait and see how tomorrow goes.

And more pregnancies....

Seriously...will they ever stop?!!!!  I feel like every day I find out someone else is pregnant....and it's never me!!  I'm in need of a pity party....and a good slap in the face to get out of this funk. 

3 more days until my appointment with my OB.  If I don't get some answers I'm going to lose my mind.

PS - mypeanut - if you're reading this, you don't count!

Having a slightly better day...

Well, my first day at my little job went well.  It was really busy and hectic.  I think a lot of that has to do with how unorganized they are.  I think it's funny that instead of just telling their current receptionists to come in an hour earlier, they're hiring me for 2 hours every day.  I can see how having someone there at 8 instead of 9 will make a big difference.  Hopefully they are happy they hired me.  Friday is my first day of 8 am starts.

DH and I have not been getting along well lately.  Neither of us really wants to be around each other and when we are, we don't have much to say.  When we were on vacation, we were fine.  But we were away from all of the stress and responsibility.  Now that's all right back in our faces again and it's definitely taking a toll on us.  I think we need another trip to the therapist together.  I really should look into making an appointment.

Only one more week until my appt with my OB.  I'm getting really anxious.  I need to start putting together a list of questions and concerns.  I know I keep saying this, but I'm really hoping that it's a worthwhile visit.  I've gotten a few names of different specialists, but I don't know if I'm ready for that yet.

Short and sweet

I'm in a pissy mood today.  I'm sick of things not going my way. 


That is all.

Onto Cycle #8

I feel like a broken record.  Always saying "onto cycle...."  :(

AF showed up yesterday.  At least I didn't wasted any pg tests this time around...especially considering my cycle was 31 days long.  I did O late though, so I knew AF would show up later.  I'm guessing I O'd on CD 18, which makes my LP normal.  I'm glad to see that.  I don't want my LP to start getting wacky on me.  I'm trying to decide if I want to start temping again.   I think I'm going to hold off this cycle and see what my dr says on the 26th.  I like temping for the fact that it confirms my O date, but I sleep horribly when I temp.  It really throws me off and it's better for me (and my DH and DS) that I sleep.

This morning DS woke up crying for a min at 2:45 am.  He fell right back to sleep, I however, did not.  I was up until 5:15.  I just couldn't turn my mind off.  I kept thinking about how my 33rd birthday is quickly approaching and how badly I want to be pregnant before then.  I know I'm not old, but I feel old in terms of getting pregnant. 

We are always really starting to feel the impact on our financial status thanks to my lack of income.  I love not working a full time job.  I was so unhappy when I worked.  DH doesn't get that though.  He'd rather me work and be miserable just so we had the money to do whatever we wanted, whenever we wanted.  I'm starting a small job this Wednesday.  I'm going to be working at a spa 2 hours/day to help them open and get ready for the day.  I'll be working Mon, Tues, Wed, Fri and Sat from 8-10 am.  They aren't paying me much, in fact, it won't help us financially at all, but it will get me out of the house.  We'll see how it goes.  I can be a loner at times, so I'm glad that I'll be alone for the first hour or so that I'm there.  It will be quiet...and I can drink my coffee peacefully while working.  Ahhhh.....a cup of coffee in peace.....

Please don't get me wrong...I wouldn't trade being a mommy for anything, but I do miss that quiet cup of coffee.

Well, I guess we'll see how this cycle goes....

Back from vacation

DH and I spent a week together in the Dominican Republic...and it was AWESOME!  We were celebrating our 5th anniversary and it was so great to get away for awhile.  It was so nice to think only of ourselves and have no responsibility for awhile.  We laid by the pool, had some drinks, ate some great food, made some friends and explored a bit of the country.  All in all...a great trip! 

Our hotel pool!

But now it's back to reality.  We got home on Monday and I started spotting on Wednesday.  Awesome.  This last cycle was really wacky and I'm hoping it's b/c I was on antibiotics.  I O'd later than normal (well, I got a +OPK later than normal...I'm still not temping).  We BD'd like crazy, but it still wasn't enough.  Another cycle down the effing toilet.  Pissed doesn't even begin to explain how I feel.

2 more weeks until I go in for a consultation with my dr.  If I leave there feeling he isn't going to help, I'm going to see a specialist that my friend has used.  I'm a little over one month away from my last BFP...we've been trying long enough.

I wish I could go back to laying on the beach feeling totally carefree...reality SUCKS!