AF arrived this morning...a day earlier than I expected. Well, at least I'm one day closer to trying again. I found out that another girl I know is pregnant...with #3. Her last one was born in Nov 2010. My DS is an entire year older than her 2nd kid...I should be pregnant before her! I know, I'm so mature. But that's how I feel.
I went for a long walk on Monday, the day I got my BFN. I actually cried periodically throughout my walk. Hopefully no one saw me...they'd think I was truly looney. Anyway, it occurred to me that the "Friday night BBQ girl" will most likely have her 2nd kid before I even get pregnant with mine. And that just made me really sad. I'm usually more optimistic, but I'm just not feeling that way anymore. It's ridiculous. I wish I could stop thinking about them. Ick.
One of my very good friends had her 3rd baby yesterday. This doesn't upset me. She had a miscarriage. In fact, she had her first with the help of IVF, but was then blessed with #2 and #3 without any help. I just wish she could pass on some of her luck to me! She has a beautiful family.
But I have to remind myself that I have a beautiful family too. DH and I have been fighting a LOT lately, but we still have a beautiful family. I just wish something would go our way for once lately.
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