Our plan

Wow, it's been awhile since I've updated....

I had my HSG done last Monday.  It looked good.  My left tube was a little slow to fill, so there may have possibly been a blockage.  If there was, the pressure of the dye was enough to get through it and the tube eventually filled.

DH had his SA done recently as well.  His results came back "borderline" for morphology and motility.  It wasn't bad enough to concern my dr too much.  He's not convinced that DH is the reason we're not pregnant.


My Cd 3 b/w came back normal.

So, our plan is to TTC on our own this cycle and next.  If we're still not pregnant, we'll go back in for another consultation with the dr.  It feels good to be moving forward.  I pray that we will have our 2nd take home baby very soon.

Sad

I'm feeling pretty down and out today.  AF is going to show up on Saturday or Sunday....what a lovely weekend treat for me.  I was really hoping that I'd miraculously get pregnant and not have to go through all the testing.  Guess that won't be the case.  I really hope this testing provides some answers.  I know that there are others out there who have been TTCAL much longer than me, but this process is really taking a toll on me. 

I've also been sad lately b/c out of the buddy group that I was originally a part of after I had my m/c, I'm the only one not pregnant.  In fact, there are several girls who have had their babies already.  While I'm beyond excited for them, I'm really sad for myself.  When will it be our turn? 

We have a plan!

My appointment last week went great!  My doctor is fantastic and is being very proactive.  We have a plan and that is providing me with the hope I haven't felt in a long time.

So, our plan...

If we don't get pg this cycle, we will begin testing next month.  I will go in for cd 3 blood work followed by an HSG when AF is done.  Sometime during AF, DH will go in for SA testing.  If everything comes back normal, we will continue trying until Jan.  If we're still not pg by Jan, we will go back to my dr and discuss a more aggressive plan.

DH took the news very well.  I wasn't sure how he'd react to the SA test, but he says he'll do whatever he needs to do.  God love him.

My dr says that the pressure from the HSG will kind of "open things up" and hopefully increase our chances of getting pregnant. 

I am just so relieved to have a plan!  I was nervous that he would tell us we need to keep trying, but he proved me wrong.

It feels so good to feel hopeful.

Tomorrow is the big day

I have my appointment with my OB tomorrow.  I have no idea what to expect.  All I know is that I really want to walk out of there with a plan.  I want to feel optimistic and hopeful again.  It's been awhile since I've felt that way.  Part of me is nervous that he won't be much help.  I do plan on going to a specialist if I leave there unsatisfied, but honestly, I really don't want to have to go that route.  I guess we'll just have to wait and see how tomorrow goes.

And more pregnancies....

Seriously...will they ever stop?!!!!  I feel like every day I find out someone else is pregnant....and it's never me!!  I'm in need of a pity party....and a good slap in the face to get out of this funk. 

3 more days until my appointment with my OB.  If I don't get some answers I'm going to lose my mind.

PS - mypeanut - if you're reading this, you don't count!

Having a slightly better day...

Well, my first day at my little job went well.  It was really busy and hectic.  I think a lot of that has to do with how unorganized they are.  I think it's funny that instead of just telling their current receptionists to come in an hour earlier, they're hiring me for 2 hours every day.  I can see how having someone there at 8 instead of 9 will make a big difference.  Hopefully they are happy they hired me.  Friday is my first day of 8 am starts.

DH and I have not been getting along well lately.  Neither of us really wants to be around each other and when we are, we don't have much to say.  When we were on vacation, we were fine.  But we were away from all of the stress and responsibility.  Now that's all right back in our faces again and it's definitely taking a toll on us.  I think we need another trip to the therapist together.  I really should look into making an appointment.

Only one more week until my appt with my OB.  I'm getting really anxious.  I need to start putting together a list of questions and concerns.  I know I keep saying this, but I'm really hoping that it's a worthwhile visit.  I've gotten a few names of different specialists, but I don't know if I'm ready for that yet.

Short and sweet

I'm in a pissy mood today.  I'm sick of things not going my way. 


That is all.